shameful

When I was 17, I kinda messed around with some guys I met online. There was nothing physical, but we chatted and stuff. Totally legal, but looking back, it was totally wrong. They were really into how young I was and how I looked (I look younger than I am, and I'm short). I liked that. Plus, I've had this kinda messed up fantasy about being used by older guys, you know? I am not proud of it and it makes me feel sick. Sorry, this is an awkward topic!