those around you

To be honest, I really don't see any hope here. I'm starting to wonder why I'm even doing this. I feel totally abandoned by the people who said they loved me. It's always like this.

They say stuff like that, but when I actually need help, they're nowhere to be found. I get gaslighted with "It's not serious," or "I didn't know what was happening," or "Now's not the time."

Nobody ever comes to help.