cautious optimism

Things aren't too bad right now. I haven't had any panic attacks in the middle of the night, and everything just feels a little easier to do. I don't know why, and it's kind of scary. I get these periods sometimes. But it's temporary. It could be over in a day, or it could last a few weeks.

It's hard to enjoy it, ironically, because I know it's going to end eventually. It could come back at any time, and when it does, it's going to be rough. But, until then, I'm going to try to get some decent sleep, take a relaxing shower, and just chill. As much as I can, anyway. Even during these "calm" periods, I still mess up sometimes, so I can't let my guard down.

Thank you very much for reading.